PLAYER Name: Sapph Age: older than 21 Personal Journal: swordspoint E-mail: velaxise at gmail AIM/MSN/etc: NA
CHARACTER Name: Historia Reiss (Christa Renz) Canon: Shingeki no Kyojin Age: 15 Timeline: Chapter 49 If playing another character from the same canon, how will you deal with this?: N/A
Personality: Born out of wedlock to an aristocrat from one of the most affluent old families and a housemaid, Historia’s short life has been a turmulent one from her early days. Growing up on a farm belonging to her father’s family, Historia has been kept in the shadow among the distant and uncommunicative family of her mother. Any form of love shown to the young child has been limited, at best, and nonexistent at worst. Treated as a farmhand, Historia takes to her life with complacence, not questioning the distance placed between herself and that of her mother. She is eventually pulled into the strife between her family members by the circumstances of her birth. As one of the heirs to the prestigious Reiss family, her position as an illegitimate child creates tension in regards to carrying on the family’s legacy. This dilemma is put on an end when the elders of the family decide to eliminate the mother and child altogether, thus removing her from the inheritance line once and for all. This plan comes into effect the night Lord Reiss--Historia’’s father--decides to reclaim mother and child. Instead of regaining her rightful place in the family, Historia ends up losing her mother, who is slaughtered by the men sent to murder the two, and any hope of her mother’s affections for her; her mother’s dying words were her regret of having given birth to Historia at all, a final rejection.
Denounced by her mother and facing the same fate, Historia is offered to be spared her life in exchange to renouncing her name and living in hiding. Her continued existence as a member of her prestigious family means the possibility of getting killed, and so she chooses the alternative by disappearing from the family’s bloodline. This decision forms a crucial part of Historia’s personality, known for the past five years as Christa Renz. Christa Renz is a re-invented character; a facade held up to hide the extreme sense of inferiority and helplessness Historia’s grown up with all her life. Unwanted, shirked, and seen as a disgrace, she manages to shove any genuine sense of worth to back of her psyche to reemerge as someone more ideal. Christa can be described at once as someone who is endearingly selfless with unmatched sweetness. She saves the last of her meals for starving comrades and goes out of her way to offer assistance on the expense of her own comfort. Christa seems to win those around her over effortlessly due to her kindness and patience. Mild mannered and pliant, she can be a pushover by those who tend to be more outspoken, yet her strong resolve and idealistic nature allow her to stand her ground and stand up for others in a show that is a little bit too perfect. She is idolized and adored for her beauty and traditional goodheartedness, making her desirable to many. However, Christa’s idealism is a thin veneer for pathological sense of self-sacrifice that borders on the suicidal. Her need to be accepted and validated pushes her beyond her capacities, pushing her into believing that dying for others is the highest way to attain honor--even if her heroics puts others in danger, as well. It is suggested that she’s perpetually chasing a sense of accomplishment that she can get only through helping others, even if it ends up being ultimately self serving. In that sense, Christa ends up conflating the act of “doing the right thing” with “being accepted”. Unbeknownst to her, the praise that comes from these heroics are what push her forward.
Christa’s turnaround takes place when she finds she can be accepted for what she is rather than what she can offer others. Christa’s struggles deal with finding her inner self worth and embracing her past instead of hiding from it. Her misguided, self destructive stubbornness turns into an iron resolve as she no longer feels the need to turn it inward, and her personal isolation fades away as she starts letting others in. Christa’s preoccupation with being the martyr in order to save others is one of her biggest obstacles, and one she deals with by deciding to live for the self she has chosen to deny before. She ends up finding further self-worth in choosing to fight alongside her comrades rather than for them. By abandoning the persona she’s been wanting to be seen as, Historia is finally able to live as who she is. The misplaced heroics of self-sacrifice is replaced with the confidence she used to lack. By not needing to build up a different, more desirable character, she is able to come into her own even if her past remains to be dealt with.
[CANON] Historia Reiss | Shingeki no Kyojin | Reserved
Name: Sapph
Age: older than 21
Personal Journal: swordspoint
E-mail: velaxise at gmail
AIM/MSN/etc: NA
CHARACTER
Name: Historia Reiss (Christa Renz)
Canon: Shingeki no Kyojin
Age: 15
Timeline: Chapter 49
If playing another character from the same canon, how will you deal with this?: N/A
Personality:
Born out of wedlock to an aristocrat from one of the most affluent old families and a housemaid, Historia’s short life has been a turmulent one from her early days. Growing up on a farm belonging to her father’s family, Historia has been kept in the shadow among the distant and uncommunicative family of her mother. Any form of love shown to the young child has been limited, at best, and nonexistent at worst. Treated as a farmhand, Historia takes to her life with complacence, not questioning the distance placed between herself and that of her mother.
She is eventually pulled into the strife between her family members by the circumstances of her birth. As one of the heirs to the prestigious Reiss family, her position as an illegitimate child creates tension in regards to carrying on the family’s legacy. This dilemma is put on an end when the elders of the family decide to eliminate the mother and child altogether, thus removing her from the inheritance line once and for all. This plan comes into effect the night Lord Reiss--Historia’’s father--decides to reclaim mother and child. Instead of regaining her rightful place in the family, Historia ends up losing her mother, who is slaughtered by the men sent to murder the two, and any hope of her mother’s affections for her; her mother’s dying words were her regret of having given birth to Historia at all, a final rejection.
Denounced by her mother and facing the same fate, Historia is offered to be spared her life in exchange to renouncing her name and living in hiding. Her continued existence as a member of her prestigious family means the possibility of getting killed, and so she chooses the alternative by disappearing from the family’s bloodline. This decision forms a crucial part of Historia’s personality, known for the past five years as Christa Renz. Christa Renz is a re-invented character; a facade held up to hide the extreme sense of inferiority and helplessness Historia’s grown up with all her life. Unwanted, shirked, and seen as a disgrace, she manages to shove any genuine sense of worth to back of her psyche to reemerge as someone more ideal. Christa can be described at once as someone who is endearingly selfless with unmatched sweetness. She saves the last of her meals for starving comrades and goes out of her way to offer assistance on the expense of her own comfort. Christa seems to win those around her over effortlessly due to her kindness and patience.
Mild mannered and pliant, she can be a pushover by those who tend to be more outspoken, yet her strong resolve and idealistic nature allow her to stand her ground and stand up for others in a show that is a little bit too perfect. She is idolized and adored for her beauty and traditional goodheartedness, making her desirable to many. However, Christa’s idealism is a thin veneer for pathological sense of self-sacrifice that borders on the suicidal. Her need to be accepted and validated pushes her beyond her capacities, pushing her into believing that dying for others is the highest way to attain honor--even if her heroics puts others in danger, as well. It is suggested that she’s perpetually chasing a sense of accomplishment that she can get only through helping others, even if it ends up being ultimately self serving. In that sense, Christa ends up conflating the act of “doing the right thing” with “being accepted”. Unbeknownst to her, the praise that comes from these heroics are what push her forward.
Christa’s turnaround takes place when she finds she can be accepted for what she is rather than what she can offer others. Christa’s struggles deal with finding her inner self worth and embracing her past instead of hiding from it. Her misguided, self destructive stubbornness turns into an iron resolve as she no longer feels the need to turn it inward, and her personal isolation fades away as she starts letting others in. Christa’s preoccupation with being the martyr in order to save others is one of her biggest obstacles, and one she deals with by deciding to live for the self she has chosen to deny before. She ends up finding further self-worth in choosing to fight alongside her comrades rather than for them. By abandoning the persona she’s been wanting to be seen as, Historia is finally able to live as who she is. The misplaced heroics of self-sacrifice is replaced with the confidence she used to lack. By not needing to build up a different, more desirable character, she is able to come into her own even if her past remains to be dealt with.