He wants to love, and defiantly loves without compunction, often to his own detriment. He is attached to just about everyone in his life who shows him a modicum of kindness, and often doesn’t question their reasons behind those kind expressions. This want for affection and affirmation is not-so-subtly rooted in his upbringing. The Jedi, while wise and respectful of all living things, are, to put it frankly, terrible with emotions. Anakin was raised first by his mother who taught him love was a beautiful and good thing, and he learned early on it was something to be sought for and fostered. The Order, on the other hand, does not fulfill Anakin’s need for love. In this (and let’s face it, along with many other aspects of the Jedi) Anakin differs from his peers. However, he takes great pains to hide certain depths of his attachments, as he would surely be expelled from the Order should they learn the true extent of them.
Due to his passionate nature Anakin does like a healthy competition from time to time, often taking his skills to the extreme (such as pod racing or chasing bounty hunters through the heavy traffic of Coruscant). And he is not without a sense of humor, willing to accept a joke at his expense when justified, such as when his inability to maintain a working lightsaber for longer than a few months’ time is brought up. Though he does prefer to direct those jokes at others rather than field them about himself. It should be noted that his sense of humor is often at odds with others, and could be considered inappropriate at times, as he does find odd things funny.
Anakin has a complicated relationship with the concept of independence. The first half of his life has been marred by the experience of being a slave. The second half, though an argument could be made that it was better, was still subject to the Master/subordinate dichotomy. He does not know what life or independence means without rank. Though he fights tooth and nail for every inch of liberation that is given to him, he cannot help but always assess where he fits in the pecking order. He’ll show a certain kind of deference to that order, using proper titles and honorifics. Despite now being a Knight, and having a very personal relationship with Obi-Wan, out of respect (yes, he does respect Obi-Wan to some degree) and deference to Obi-Wan, Anakin has a difficult time not addressing him as ‘Master’.
However, whether this means he will obey those who out rank him is another thing altogether. Simply put, if he doesn’t feel like it he won’t. Some of the time ‘doesn’t feel like it’ means he feels obeying orders is simply wrong for the situation, and that the right thing to do involves going against the Council or instructions from Obi-Wan. Some of the time ‘doesn’t feel like it’ means he’s being a petulant brat.
Despite how his passions can translate into good actions, his negative qualities often hinder his good intentions.
He is entirely too reckless and gives little forethought to his actions or their consequences for himself or his loved ones. His hotheaded temper often leads him right into the thick of trouble (usually what one could call ‘aggressive negotiations’). His judgment can be clouded by his emotions, making it difficult for him to realize what he is doing before the completion of his actions.
This impetuousness is often intensified by his impatience and arrogance. He knows he is the most powerful Jedi of his age. These kinds of things tend to go to ones pretty, little Jedi Knights head. Anakin suffers from the Running Before One Can Walk syndrome. Due to the knowledge that he is quite powerful, he believes he can do all things before he’s mastered how to do them. And he is disappointed in himself more than anyone else when he fails – though, with his emotional growth truncated at ten years old (due to joining an Order that borders on the definition of a Cult, one that prohibits the healthy development of emotions and how to cope with them), he does tend to take his frustrations out on the people and things around him.
His belief in bringing justice to those who do not have it is what initially drew him to the Jedi Order, and that ideal is certainly a commendable one; however, he is a terrible fit for such an ascetic life. He can practice self-denial for those he cares about, but the Order requires more than the renunciation of claim to physical possessions - the Code forbids the formation of attachments to even other living beings. Anakin has half internalized these teachings, but he cannot bring himself to fully embrace them. In refusing to do so, he walks a thin line. He believes he’s entitled to love, and to be loved, but if the Order found out he would be expelled (and Padmé’s career and the help she brings to millions of people would be in ruins). The fear of losing Padmé and her love and all that they’ve carved out for themselves has made him extremely selfish about his relationships, and he guards all this jealously.
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Due to his passionate nature Anakin does like a healthy competition from time to time, often taking his skills to the extreme (such as pod racing or chasing bounty hunters through the heavy traffic of Coruscant). And he is not without a sense of humor, willing to accept a joke at his expense when justified, such as when his inability to maintain a working lightsaber for longer than a few months’ time is brought up. Though he does prefer to direct those jokes at others rather than field them about himself. It should be noted that his sense of humor is often at odds with others, and could be considered inappropriate at times, as he does find odd things funny.
Anakin has a complicated relationship with the concept of independence. The first half of his life has been marred by the experience of being a slave. The second half, though an argument could be made that it was better, was still subject to the Master/subordinate dichotomy. He does not know what life or independence means without rank. Though he fights tooth and nail for every inch of liberation that is given to him, he cannot help but always assess where he fits in the pecking order. He’ll show a certain kind of deference to that order, using proper titles and honorifics. Despite now being a Knight, and having a very personal relationship with Obi-Wan, out of respect (yes, he does respect Obi-Wan to some degree) and deference to Obi-Wan, Anakin has a difficult time not addressing him as ‘Master’.
However, whether this means he will obey those who out rank him is another thing altogether. Simply put, if he doesn’t feel like it he won’t. Some of the time ‘doesn’t feel like it’ means he feels obeying orders is simply wrong for the situation, and that the right thing to do involves going against the Council or instructions from Obi-Wan. Some of the time ‘doesn’t feel like it’ means he’s being a petulant brat.
Despite how his passions can translate into good actions, his negative qualities often hinder his good intentions.
He is entirely too reckless and gives little forethought to his actions or their consequences for himself or his loved ones. His hotheaded temper often leads him right into the thick of trouble (usually what one could call ‘aggressive negotiations’). His judgment can be clouded by his emotions, making it difficult for him to realize what he is doing before the completion of his actions.
This impetuousness is often intensified by his impatience and arrogance. He knows he is the most powerful Jedi of his age. These kinds of things tend to go to ones pretty, little Jedi Knights head. Anakin suffers from the Running Before One Can Walk syndrome. Due to the knowledge that he is quite powerful, he believes he can do all things before he’s mastered how to do them. And he is disappointed in himself more than anyone else when he fails – though, with his emotional growth truncated at ten years old (due to joining an Order that borders on the definition of a Cult, one that prohibits the healthy development of emotions and how to cope with them), he does tend to take his frustrations out on the people and things around him.
His belief in bringing justice to those who do not have it is what initially drew him to the Jedi Order, and that ideal is certainly a commendable one; however, he is a terrible fit for such an ascetic life. He can practice self-denial for those he cares about, but the Order requires more than the renunciation of claim to physical possessions - the Code forbids the formation of attachments to even other living beings. Anakin has half internalized these teachings, but he cannot bring himself to fully embrace them. In refusing to do so, he walks a thin line. He believes he’s entitled to love, and to be loved, but if the Order found out he would be expelled (and Padmé’s career and the help she brings to millions of people would be in ruins). The fear of losing Padmé and her love and all that they’ve carved out for themselves has made him extremely selfish about his relationships, and he guards all this jealously.