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[CANON OC] Hortensia (Kotomine's wife) ✟ Fate/etc ✟ Reserved ✟ 1/4
Name: Nyx
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Character Name: Kirei Kotomine's wife, whose given name is never stated in canon. Her maiden name is Hortensia, and she presumably took Kirei's surname after marrying him. For ease of playing (and because there's really no reason not to give her one), I'll be using Benedetta as her given name. So, Benedetta Kotomine, née Hortensia. Whew.
Canon: Fate/etc
Timeline: Post-death
If playing another character from the same canon, how will you deal with this?: N/A
Personality:
Kirei says his wife was a saint, and his assessment is hard to argue with. Benedetta can check off every box on the list—both good and bad. She's patient and forgiving, willing to withstand poor behavior in order to encourage good, but also unwilling to stand up for herself or become angry when she's treated poorly. She's loving and nurturing, willing to care for and support even strangers in their time of need, but she ignores her own wants and needs in the process. She's innocent, but her purity of mind can't be separated from her sheltered naivety. And, above all, she's pious, her faith in God and His benevolence boundless and unfailing, and yet at the same time blind to opposing views and even objective failures of the Church. Her unshakable "goodness" becomes a double-edged sword.
Not that most people would realize that at a glance. On the surface, she's just unfailingly sweet and friendly, always willing to offer a kind word or gesture to the people around her regardless or whether she knows them or not. She hates seeing people unhappy, and she'll do whatever it takes to stop them from being such. She's perfectly genuine about this, too—other than simply being nice, she's deeply empathetic, and as such she comes to care for others quickly, easily becoming invested in their personal struggles. Furthermore, she's willing to try to understand the behaviors and motivations of even the cruelest of people, and she's easily moved to tears by the hardships other people have had to endure.
Of course, you can't be a saint without a little self-sacrifice, and Benedetta has that in spades, too. In fact, she has a little too much of it. She's perfectly willing to throw away her health, her happiness, and even her life for the sake of other people, taking altruism and turning it into martyrdom. Case in point: Her willingness to commit suicide in the hopes that feeling sadness at her death would allow Kirei to be ultimately happy. Sure, the circumstances there were a little extreme—she cares about her husband immensely, even by her standards, and she was on her deathbed anyway—but it's really just an expression of her normal behavior taken to the highest degree.
Ultimately, this pattern of ignoring her own needs and desires arises from her distorted self-image. She sees herself as worthless and lacking in intrinsic value as a person, utterly insignificant but for her ability to do good for other people, be that on an individual personal level or by fulfilling a role for the Church. She doesn't even hate herself. She would have to care about herself to do that, and if her tendency to run her already sickly body ragged proves anything, it's that she doesn't. This also causes her to blame herself for things that are ultimately beyond her control, since if she can't help others, what use does she have? If only she had been able to do a little more...
Of course, saint or not, she's still a person. She does have negative feelings, and she does want things. However, negativity and desire are both things she suppresses and ignores, and doing something just because it will make her happy isn't something she is capable of without guilt. In her mind, resentment, anger, and want are all selfish emotions that she should be above, regardless of how justified or innocent they are. And when she does feel those things, she is seized with feelings of moral failure. If she was a better person, she wouldn't think that way. How could she be so awful, feeling something like that? In fact, she's so awful that God probably caused whatever made her feel that way to begin with, just to punish her. Which she deserves. Because she's awful. Her looping, self-reinforcing logic makes it hard for her to deal with the issue rationally.
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Here is what we know about her in canon.
In many ways, the Benedetta's life was already dictated by the circumstances she was born into. Two factors in particular were immensely influential: her family's affiliation with the Holy Church, and the psychic power she was born with. "Masochistic pneumatic automatism diathesis" is an ability that is both rare and given particular value by the Church, as it allows the person possessing it to serve as a demon detector. When the fact that she had been born with it became apparent at the time of her birth, her parents saw it as a blessing that she had the ability to serve the Church in such a unique and vital way. Even though being in the presence of an evil spirit causes a person with Benedetta's gift pain, she was never really given any choice otherwise.
Which isn't to say her parents didn't care about her or that she was mistreated. She was a happy child, told that she would bear a great burden for the sake of God at a young age, and in reply she threw herself into her training and education with eager enthusiasm. Her body was weak and had difficulty healing, but she refused to let that be a barrier between herself and what she knew to be her purpose in life. Even if it hurt, she wanted to serve that role for the Church, perfectly willing to endure pain for the sake of others.
Her naive resolve was only damaged a little when it came time for her to actually be put to use in that manner. She didn't just feel the pain of people possessed—cuts, bruises, and burns all appeared on her skin as well, with no apparent cause. With her immune deficient body, the wounds remained there long after they would have healed on anyone else, and as a result she spent much of her time cloistered away inside hospitals when she wasn't doing her work. This served only to isolate her from the "real world" and lead to her growing into a sheltered adult. She saw people leading normal lives and came to idealize such as lives without pain and suffering, not really having enough contact with people outside the Church to know otherwise.
But she didn't grow resentful—or, more accurately, she didn't let herself grow resentful. She was performing a great service to God. How could she let something like that make her bitter? She squashed down her negative feelings and denied them even to herself. No wonder her loving family never realized she was unhappy—she never realized she was unhappy herself. Ultimately, she was used until her body broke down beyond repair. Any more than that would kill her. Whether she liked it or not, she was made to retire and told of her last duty to the Church. It was a simple one: get married and start a family.
Of course, the reason for that was the hope that she would pass on her rare ability to her child, but she took the order as an opportunity to start a new life. A happy life—one of those idealized ones she had wondered about as she lay in her hospital bed. Of course, not knowing any other life, she decided she would marry within the Church. This decision proved to cause a few problems, as most of the men she met through those channels seemed to be only interested in her for diathesis. Eventually, she found the man she would marry through a foreign priest introducing her to his son.
Kirei Kotomine wasn't interested in seeing her pass on that valued psychic power of hers. He didn't look on her condition with condescending pity. That was enough to pique her interest in him, so she sought to understand him. Even with naive as she was, Benedetta was an empathetic woman and perceptive of other people's moods, so she picked up on things his father and the other people around him missed. He was troubled. She wanted to support him and help him find happiness. And she wanted a happy family of her own, too. So, they married.
Married life wasn't quite as idyllic as she had thought it would be, but she didn't let herself become disenchanted. Kirei confessed that he wasn't like other people and couldn't feel normal emotions, but Benedetta only redoubled her efforts to bring him happiness, her faith in him and in God never wavering. Her condition gradually deteriorated, her body become weaker and weaker as she grew sicker and sicker, but she refused to despair at her limited time. And she did have a child with Kirei—a girl named Caren. Caring for a child was difficult with their circumstance, but she didn't let that sour the experience for her. In the end, she was happy, pain or not.
Their marriage only lasted two years. When Benedetta was on her deathbed and severely weakened, Kirei confessed that he had been unable to love her—and, therefore, couldn't go on living. Her response was to tell him that she loved him and kill herself in front of him, trying to evoke grief from him in the hopes that this would allow him to see that he could love and that he deserved to live. She died with a smile on her face, believing that the tears he shed at that time were for her.
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Physically, Benedetta is extremely weak and sickly. She is immune deficient, which causes her to be chronically ill. It's stated that even a "tiny wound" can kill her if it's left untreated, hence the reason she appears "tattered" and is covered in bandages.
Mentally and emotionally, however, she seems almost untouchable. She doesn't lose hope and her faith in God is all but unshakable. It's not hard for her to carry on even in dire circumstances. However, as this ultimately stems from her lacking a sense of self-worth, it's just as much a weakness as a strength; she will allow other people to take advantage of her and even sacrifice her own health and happiness for flimsy reasons because she doesn't truly believe she deserves it.
Abilities:
Masochistic Pneumatic Automatism Diathesis- Caren was stated to have inherited her psychic ability from her mother. This is basically a rare power that allows a person to act as a radar for demons, as when they're near a person who is possessed, they experience pain and even physical wounds. This can even happen when they're simply around someone whose thoughts and actions are sufficiently "dark" or "evil."
Relationships to Canon Characters:
First Person: Musebox thread
Third Person:
Benedetta arrived barefoot and in a dress far too thin for winter. That made sense, seeing as until a few minutes ago it had been summertime and she had been bedridden from illness, and also dead. The alive-after-death thing wasn't what bothered her about the situation, though. She had always believed in an afterlife, after all. But if she had died, why was her body still marked with never-healing wounds?
She ignored the buildings highlighted on the train station's map—barely paid attention to the sign but for the words written there, her still-numb mind turning them over again and again. They didn't make half as much sense as she would have liked them to. But the cold was setting in, radiating up from her toes, so rather than dwelling on those cryptic words further, she turned and walked toward the nearby buildings.
She didn't stop at the clinic, despite her form being plainly peppered with bandages still. Instead, she walked directly to the cathedral she saw in the distance. She was drawn there almost instinctively—after all, what better place to go when her mind was troubled? When she pushed its doors open, her knees gave out beside the pew nearest to the entrance, and she didn't fight the urge to let her aching body collapse against it, drawing her legs up and huddling to warm herself.
Her dead limbs had no right to ache like this. Was she in purgatory, or was this hell itself...?
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1. What name would you prefer I use for tagging/the taken characters list? There's no widely accepted fanon name for her, alas, so would you prefer I list the headcanon one I'm using, or something more general like Hortensia/Kotomine's wife/both?
2. Similarly, is it okay if I just stick her under the Fate/Zero heading on the taken list? She never appears directly in any part of the series, hence why I'm asking.
3. Aaand lastly, this is something I was going to ask on the FAQ, but I'm already asking things here so I figure why give you another comment to respond to: Is there any place in the city that might cause her diathesis to flare up? (I'm going to set up a permissions post for player characters, no worries there!)
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1. Your headcanon name should be just fine for the purposes of playing in Ruby City, at least until any sort of "official" name comes to light.
2. You can absolutely stick her there, since it would probably be the most appropriate.
3. It's possible that if she got stuck too deep in the catacombs she might experience some issues, though there's nothing actually "demonic" there so much as it is an excess of residual, malevolent energy. Feel free to contact us directly if this ever seems likely and we can clarify further for you if need be.
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