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Ruby City Mods ([personal profile] rubycitymods) wrote2012-01-13 01:45 pm
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APPLICATIONS


APPLICATIONS


Applications are processed weekly, every weekend. The cut-off time for the submission of applications is 11:59PST on Saturday.
✗ Before applying, please read the FAQ and Rules pages.
✗ Please submit your application with the journal you plan to use if you have one made already. If not, another journal is fine, but we prefer your intended journal so it makes for an easier time in granting access to the mod journal and the contacts page.
✗ For very long applications, we would ask you to please separate them into various comments so that they will not take up too much of the page.
✗ Please title your application as { [CANON/CANON OC/OC]CHARACTER NAME || Series Title || reserve/no reserve || X of X } in the subect header
IMPORTANT: Our application form was edited on September 07, 2015. Please use the revised form.
✗ If you are looking for an example of what an application should be like, please refer to the application here for an example of a canon character application, and here for an original character application.


✗ Canon Application



✗ Canon OC Application



✗ OC Application



A note for CR AU applications
Ruby City does allow previous game history/CR to be brought over on a case by case basis. If you want to include this in your application please add additional sections for PERSONALITY DEVELOPMENT and PREVIOUS GAME HISTORY beneath the Personality and Background/History sections.

In these additional sections we would like to see a brief outline of your character's previous game history and how it potentially impacted on and altered their canon personality.


✧ N A V I G A T I O N ✧
hierophantes: (i am the knife in a gunfight)

REVISIONS also cw: suicide just to be safe

[personal profile] hierophantes 2014-09-08 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
No problem!

Kirei's primary conflict comes from a largely black and white view of good and evil, in line with what he would call an ordinary person's morality. For example, acts of charity and kindness being 'good' vs. acts of cruelty and sadism being 'evil'. He recognizes the difference and tries to be a good person because he finds that to be in line with what the world views as acceptable rather than any desire of his own. As far as he's aware at this point in time, Kirei thinks he has no desire of his own, and his disinterest in life and the world around him comes in part from that lack of attachment to anything or anyone around him. All he can do is go through the motions of being a just and moral person though he gains nothing from doing so; in other words, he's less of his own person and more like something self-programmed to do what the world and others expect of him.

And on the subject of others, there are mainly two in Kirei's life up to his current canon point that should be elaborated on: his father Risei Kotomine and his wife Claudia Ortensia. Risei, being a kind and loving father, took pride in the fact that from an early age, his son lived up to all expectations. In reality, Kirei's questioning of his own nature started with a simple realization he had one morning: he did not love his father. There was no reason for that to be true, and in fact he didn't hate Risei either. But the fact remained that he felt nothing for either his father or that which Risei Kotomine regarded as beautiful. Furthermore, the two lived with Risei having no idea of his son's dilemma; Kirei was so thorough in going through the motions of being a good and moral person that his father never once had reason to think he was anything else. To phrase it another way, it would be a safe assumption to make that Kirei was never truly understood by even his own father.

In his attempts to find some source of real happiness, Kirei concluded that any normal individual would be happy to love someone and have a simple family life. So his final attempt--termed by Kirei himself as an 'experiment'--was in marrying a woman named Claudia. A member of his father's congregation, she was a terminally ill woman with only a handful of years left to live at most. He made an honest attempt to care about her for two years, hoping that would be what finally triggered some sense of mundane happiness. Although he made such an attempt and was in turn earnestly loved by Claudia herself, Kirei found he experience neither joy nor anything resembling love. His only interest came in Claudia's suffering and their daughter Caren's despair at her ailing mother's state.

Finally, Kirei determined that the existence of someone like himself--who felt no joy and failed to recognize what others regarded as beautiful--was clearly just a mistake, and resolved to simply end it. As she had been part of his final experiment, Kirei determined it only fair to inform Claudia of his results. Approaching his wife on her deathbed, Kirei calmly informed her that despite all his efforts, he was incapable of loving her. In her final effort to prove to Kirei that he could love someone and that his life was therefore worth living, Claudia chose to disagree with him before killing herself.

Unfortunately, in that moment Kirei Kotomine found his only thought was 'How terrible. If she was going to die, I wanted to kill her myself.'

For reasons he could not comprehend--not knowing if it would be for his own pleasure or to end her suffering--the only grief he felt was that of losing an opportunity. Though he saw Claudia's death as meaningless, Kirei didn't want it to have been worthless; as a result he both continued to live and (for a time) ceased pursuing answers to his existence.